My ideas for my 3 last "good" meals were totally thwarted! My brother cancelled breakfast plans with me so I didn't get my chocolate chip pancakes. My husband brought me lunch from Taco Cabana and it was inedible. I didn't have anyone to go to dinner with so all I had for dinner was Ben & Jerry's Phish Food. The entire pint. Delicious but not what I had in mind for my "last" meal. I went to the grocery store and bought lots of healthful foods for the week. I hope that I'm not too grumpy in the upcoming days. I want this process to be one that leads me to a healthier, happier, prettier, less self-conscious and truer me. I'm scared that I will fail again. I've tried so many different diets, plans, ideas and I have failed at all of them. I hired a nutritionist and had a trainer for 2 years and still failed. I intellectually know what to do to be successful but I sabotage myself. I'm working to get to the reasons behind that but I'm hoping this time that I have worked through enough to start moving in the right direction. Tomorrow is also my official weigh in and I will also take measurements and a picture. Sweet dreams (I'll probably be dreaming of queso!),
Fat Girl
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